greedy person

It is hard to stand without you, my Lord.

I feel that you are looking at me but, how can I live as the person you want me to be? I know I failed. Actually, I am failing. There is a rule which I can choose to follow it then easily get you and others’ loud clapping. I however try to screw it up. Truly hate people say; “it’s God’s say so.” Wouldn’t you say so?

Am I too greedy? Beside your love, I need more, I want more. Passion, hope, brave, those beautiful feeling I have been encountered from you.

But I lost.

Teach me how to fix the relationship with you after I walked toward the opposite way.